The Guilty Conscious Grows [P]

[Bella Millhouse]

Bella jogged into the hospital wing and looked around noticing she had beaten her brother. As she waited for him and the girl to arrive she fixed up a space away from the door so the girl was disturbed so much by the people coming and going. As Bella finished up this task she thought on the girl and how she came to be hanging in the playground. Her first instinct was suicide but she knew that she could be wrong. Though if her assumptions were correct Bella knew once the girl woke up she might not be to excited to still be alive. "I might be in for a rough night," she quietly said as she began to pace the room.

Pacing the room left Bella time to think on why her brother might be so affected by the young girl. She knew he was probably close to some students and couldn't help but wonder how Leon and the other were acquainted. As she thought on Bella remembered briefly, before she had made her way to the castle, Leon telling her their was no room for complications because of the girl's husband and two children. That thought made her frown knowing that her brother was right. There was no room for any problems, even if they were the slightest ones.

At that thought Bella glanced to the stack of potions in the small room to her right moving into there she grabbed a few that could come in handy through the night. Just when she grabbed the last one she strained her ears at the sound of an opening door . Making her way out of the room she hoped it was finally them.

[Headmaster Millhouse]

Leonardo knew that in this situation special abilities had to be used to insure quick travel. In this predicament time was of the essence and for Billie to wake up now would be catastrophic so he had to get to the hospital wing and get her situated as fast as possible, so Leonardo decided that he would use a family ability to surpass the securities and appear directly in the hospital wing. He embraced the body of Billie carefully and then disappeared in a burst of red fiery flames.

In an instant Leonardo appeared in the hospital wing in the same scene as when he left. Out of no where in the middle of the hospital wing flames erupted and dissipated to show Leonardo and the unconscious Billie. "I'm sorry for the big scene sis but it was the fastest way." He walked over with Billie in his arms and sat her down on the newly fixed bed. Leonardo figured that Bella had fixed it while she was waiting on Leonardo and Billie to arrive. once he set her down and stood for a moment in silence only hearing the chinking of glass potion bottles and the hurried footsteps of his sister as she got things ready to take care of Billie for the night.

Finally he came back into focus and spoke once more. " It's not going to be an easy one sis. She won't be too happy to find she's alive, but let me do the talking. You just do your healing and I'll keep to calming her down and getting her in the right mindset." He didn't want to sound rude, but he was being plain. Now as his sister got the potions ready to more efficiently stabilize and heal Billie, Leonardo waited for her to awaken to the world she had tried to leave.

[Billie Joe Bryant]

[green]So close, she had felt her body going cold, the pain that was pushing against her neck was starting to numb. And then she'd seen nothing, and that was a good feeling. The feeling that she was leaving this planet, and bettering the lives of others.
But then the pain returned in a flash, the black disappeared. She opened her eyes slowly but cautiously, her hand however, shook violently.
She coughed up a few drops of blood that were stuck in the back of her throat and looked around, until she had to move her neck, which she winced in pain.

Anger filled her veins. When you find a note like that, it's clearly obvious that she wanted to die.
As she spoke, she attempted to raise her voice. "You saved me. You motherf***ing saved me. Why the f*** did you do that?" She said, barely managing a growl.
If it hadn't of been for the weakness that she was experiencing, she would have swiped the wand that was being hidden usefully down her cleavage, out of sight and out of reach from nearly everyone.

She wondered how long she'd be in here this time. Hopefully not long, Joy would want to get rid of her as soon as possible. She was just a disappointment to her, just like how she was seen by everyone in her family, and everyone in general.
The thought occurred to her, that she should stop seeing Leonardo in these kinds of circumstances.
"You saw the situation, why the bloody hell didn't you leave me?! It would have done everyone a f***ing favour!!"[/green]

[Headmaster Millhouse]

Leonardo looked at her with tired but caring eyes that closely resembled his grandfathers. She was reacting just as he thought she would and so now he would have to talk her through this. "I know you think that you needed to do that, but you need not. I promise you there are people who care about you. Although you may think you're a burden to everyone you are not. There are three people I can think of immediately who love and need you. It is true however that you have made some mistakes, but you can learn from these and become a better person. You're not a bad person I promise you and I can help you to correct your wrongs if you want me to. Just ask for help that's all you ever had to do. You don't have to ask me, but there are many who are willing to help."

As he talked he only hoped that she would truly listen to him. They had both bumped heads on many occasions, but Leonardo really wanted her to straighten herself out. He knew what a great person she could be and what a wonderful wife and mother she would be if she only took his advice. "Please let someone help you. You have so much in front of you and I don't want you to loose it. Just please listen."

He looked at her deeply concerned with Leo and their twins in mind. He didn't want the two kids to grow up to find out that their mother had killed herself when they were still young.

[Billie Joe Bryant]

Her hollow eyes stared at the professor, opposing his. She knew that she’d blown her chances with life, her conscience were slowly wilting away as days passed. She also believed that no one could help her, ever since the age of 13, she’d been going in and out of therapy sessions. Only to return back to the way she was.
“Who are YOU to say what I can and can’t do? And don’t you dare say that! My own husband stays late at work to avoid me, even when I was in hospital he avoided going home! He didn’t even want to hear about me! I know that I can’t change into a good wife, mother. Hell. I can never be a good PERSON. Ever, I never have been. People have been keeping my own children from me.” She hissed. “There is a lot that you don’t know about me, Leonardo. I am a bad person, Nick and Joy have finally disowned me. Oh oh! And Chris hates me too!” Her hiss turned into a cruel and empty laugh.

She’d always been stubborn. She’d always knew of how much she was a failure, and how twisted she was. The darker side of her- the one that so many therapists had attempted to keep down- had taken over, and she was loving the image of a sinister and cold girl, who had had everything. But then stabbed it and bled it dry.
Bt she missed her kids, and she missed Leo.
“Help? From who? No on can save me now. Not you, not Dagner- oh yeah, how’s she doing by the way?- not the many psychiatrists and therapists that have been cautious of me in my past. Nothing. I have nothing in front of me too. I’m still a teenager who has had twins, works in a café and is married to a Quidditch player. Where is the potential in that? Hm?”

She closed her eyes and let a tear fall. Her make up and skin still glowing despite the rope marks on her neck, and the deep wounds in her arms and legs.
Memories gave her a warm smile. And the next thing she knew, she was talking again. “You know. My pregnancy days were possibly the best of my life. I stopped drinking instantly, didn’t take anything. Hell, my arms were clear for the longest time in years. Everything was perfect, Leo was so protective of me, he always made sure that no muggle cars, or anything harmful came near me. He was so excited- it was cute. I felt I had a purpose at that time. I miss those days. I’m not saying it was all great. When that b*tch Aideen kicked me- I could have killed her, and the birth was the most painful thing ever. Even the Cruciatus curse was less painful. But they were great times. And then there were the attacks going on around me. I feared so much. I wanted to get this war over and done with. And the Death Eaters seemed the safest side, the side that would win. They were ruthless, merciless. They seemed more determined to win. They’ll win. And that’s why I’ve signed my life to them. And when this war is over, I wouldn‘t have regretted it. I just wish that Leo would see sense and join too- he‘ll have himself killed, not me.” She paused, “That’s how I know that I won’t get killed. As long as I stay faithful to the Dark lord, I’m safe. Everyone in the Order won’t kill me. They’re too scared of the consequences. And I know it.”

[Bella Millhouse]

As Bella made her way out in the middle of the hospital wing her eyes instantly set on the burst of flames that had erupted right in front of her. The sudden appearance of her brother and the girl wasn't as surprising as the entrance they gave. She watched as Leon rushed the girl to the bed she had made and listened to his apology for the scene. Bella smiled just the slightest and made her way over to him and her new patient. "No worries, I understand completely. I have to say you surprised me though. I was expecting that kind of entrance," she told him as she set down all her potions on the bed side table.

Turning to look at Leon she heard him speak about the girl not being happy that she hadn't succeed in killing herself. Bella nodded her head with a sigh knowing her earlier thoughts were correct. Thinking this she turned back to her potions and began to mix a few making a newer potion which took on the color of dark brown and a thick texture. Making a face at the new potion, knowing she wouldn't of liked taking it, she turned back to the bed just in time to hear the girl's first words.

Taking a step back she let Leon and the other speak. Let them get out what they both needed to say. Listening to both she continued to stand where she was knowing this wasn't the right time to step in. The girl was in a rage and most likely wouldn't be up for taking anything that would help keep her healthy just yet. Glancing at her brother she gave a inward sigh seeing he was trying hard to reassure the girl she was best alive then dead. And not just for herself but her family.